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Exit Sign

the one with the final entry (?)

Posted on 2006.03.15 at 12:37
hey everyone.

i guess i am a little bored with this place already and since i want to try and rebuild my life (for real this time), i have decided to move.

you can get all my new musings @
The Next Exit

so good luck and God bless...
continue reading yah! ;)

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the one with the poem

Posted on 2006.03.14 at 15:39

the quiet approaches night after night
the darkness covers the world and my soul
my heart wonders what could be, what might
this nightly exercise is taking its toll

i wish my answers will come one day
as i walk alone on the quest
the beast of doubt one day i might slay
till that day, i lay here in a mess

the colours around not all bright
as long i walk alone
will you join me, the world we can fight
hand in hand, out light the world shone

our paths cross, they have not
our hearts together, one they make
my life i pay for what i have sought
our destiny together is what i take

love me as long as the stars fill the sky
as long as the heavens are atop the world
and i'll dedicate my life to you
until time stops and the fire turns cold

this story now ends, a mess, a whirlwind
whoever you are....what ever place you be
one day, believe you me, each other we'll find
give it some time, you'll see

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the one with the lyrics

Posted on 2006.03.13 at 12:47

Something Stupid

I know I stand in line, until you think you have the time
To spend an evening with me
And if we go someplace to dance, I know that there's a chance
You won't be leaving with me

And afterwards we drop into a quiet little place
And have a drink or two
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
Like: "I love you"

I can see it in your eyes, that you despise the same old lies
You heard the night before
And though it's just a line to you, for me it's true
It never seemed so right before

I practice every day to find some clever lines to say
To make the meaning come through
But then I think I'll wait until the evening gets late
And I'm alone with you

The time is right your perfume fills my head, the stars get red
And oh the night's so blue
And then I go and spoil it all, by saying something stupid
Like: "I love you"
("I love you, I love you,...")

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the one with self answered questions

Posted on 2006.03.13 at 09:56
had many thoughts go through my head recently...too many to even recount all of them.
but there are the few that are so significant, who knows....they might be pivotal to my future.
right here...right now...my life changes because of the decisions i make.

since dec, i have played around with the idea of why things happen or don't happen to me.
it had been an interesting journey indeed.
everything that happened to me brought me to a quest/mission.
to experience something for myself, or just bring me to a specific place at a specific time.
a little confused? i am myself.

imagine this...
i wasn't in the happiest of moods when the year started, but it allowed me to understand how absolute desperation and despair felt like.
and not long after, i was able to be there for others who were either facing similar problems or simply be more of an understanding person in their time of need.

as for why certain things were not happening in my life, i guess i have no answers for that except one thing: that i was guided away from complications that were 'foreseen' and i didn't need those extra problems.

a little ego-centric perhaps, but it seems the most logical to me.
even that is a little weird since all this is based on my trust in God.
a concept any logical scientist will dispute till his/her last breath.

i sure hope this makes sense later on in my life.
to why i am feeling all crappy right now about everything.
my work, my life, and who i am.
i guess, being selfish, all i want is to know, for sure, what my mission is.
like a knight of old, given a quest in the name of his lord.
simple and clear, even if the mission is impossible, it doesn't matter, because i'll know exactly what i need to do...

but some might contest that finding the objective itself IS the point of the quest

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the one with the add-on entry

Posted on 2006.03.12 at 00:28
alamak.....stupid.....didn't write it down in my entry.....
I got the camera already!!!
that is why the pics for the bbq up soooo fast.
Canon EOS 350D


anyways.....realised i kena sunburnt as well....my arms are RED!!!

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the one with the bbq

Posted on 2006.03.11 at 23:59
a good way to end a loooong day.
worked on the photos for the SSA BBQ today.....had the bestest time there today.
met up with the best of old friends and met several new ones.
really hope we can have more of these in the future.
definitely will make life a little more bearable here....

the photos can be found here
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after the bbq, mervyn and joel came over after we got ourselves beer and cider to party on over @ my place.
we arrived home to lindsay and nadia, who were just about to start with 'wedding singer'.

halfway thru the movie....it came to mind....wow....imagine this....we are a bunch of young adults in brisbane....hanging around after an afternoon of bbq and fun....watching a dvd....having drinks and snacks....
we were living the life man!!!!
so few moments are like this and i hope it doesn't end so soon....or ever...lol

after the movie, (nadia left near the end), we started sing star again (LOL) and sang ourselves silly before all had to leave.
my sis came over half way too.

so here i am now....updating this blog with the link to the bbq photos (links above) that i worked on just only.
nearing the end of the day for me.
still feel crappy about life....but with more days like this...things can be much more bearable.

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the one with the old problem

Posted on 2006.03.10 at 09:01
Sitting here alone in the office with almost no one even on the floor can be quite disturbing.
It allows the mind to wander and go to places you don't even want to imagine.

An old problem is back.
My mind is going nuts again.
My heart is messed up again.
Heart over mind OR mind over heart?
How will this end again?

The last time this happened, it didn't end well.
My heart won and took control.
Leaving me helpless.
And I almost ended up lost, and in some way...I might still be.

My mind might not be in the best condition to handle this as well.
All the things happening around me has only weakened it.
I am a little disillusioned about life as it is.
Why can't there be more happiness around?
What ever happened to smiles and innocence?

How will it turn out this time?
Let my heart take control again and risk losing myself further?
Or let my head be in control this time.
Sit back, take in whatever happens and eventually accept my fate in this world......

I've been trying - I'm not lying
No one's perfect. I've got baggage

Life's too short, babe, time is flying
I'm looking for baggage that goes with mine

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the one with the nice song

Posted on 2006.03.09 at 16:28
Oh well....tried to embed the video but it didn't work.

Here is the link instead:


Woke up this morning feeling a little empty.
Got a sneaky suspicion as to why.
But I shall not elaborate.

Perhaps it is also because of the time of year.
Not many things in store (or issit too many things coming up?).

Perhaps all the sadness around me is finally getting to me.

Perhaps the reality of life is finally kicking in.

I dunno...
I just want to shake this feeling...


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Canon EOS 350D

I shall settle for this lower cost model to make way for more accessories la....SIGH

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the one with the sickly suspicion

Posted on 2006.03.07 at 14:32
Crap....sitting here @ my desk with my nose all runny.
Stupid aircon blasting directly overhead.
No wonder I am feeling sickly right now.

Been waking up every morning tired.
I wonder if I am having trouble sleeping cos of a blocked nose @ night.

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the one with the camera dream

Posted on 2006.03.07 at 08:29

Image hosting by Photobucket
Canon EOS 20D

Ah...I want this camera.
But I'll need to save as well as chew off a leg and an arm to pay for it as well as the accessories to match.
I'll do it....even if it is the last thing I do!!!

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the one with the self awareness

Posted on 2006.03.06 at 16:32
This just came in while I was standing in the corridor in my office.
I am a terrible conversationalist.

Good listener yes....advisor...even a discussor.....but I am boring if you are waiting for me to bring up topics of conversation.

If you had a problem, I'll be a listening ear, give advice if you need some.
Comforting words and words of encouragement are always available.

But if you want me to sustain a conversion....I'll stop dead almost immediately.
I am boring.......

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The REAL Weekly Update

Posted on 2006.03.06 at 16:00
LOL!!! I had my laugh already.
For those of you still in the dark....the previous entry was a brainchild of my extreme boredom that night.
Here is the real update:


It all started last Sunday....
We all went to to Elyanna's place for a pool party.
Got to know some interesting and fun people from her church.
It was great fun....I was harrassing Nadia in the pool, while she and Lindsay harrassed me back.

Thursday was the best, despite the RAIN!!!
We dropped by the Guild Bar for the Uni students' welcome party.
It was a smash hit.
We got shortlisted to be on some weird social games but never got called.

The BBQ food for the night was terrible.
Beef Burger....bleah!!
Had a few drinks....and Nadia was drunk before you can say "stoopid woman'.

We left a little early cos we were not going to the after party @ "Chalk".
Returned home and gave Sing Star a go before Elyanna left and Nadia stayed over to avoid going home alone drunk.

Friday wasn't that boring either.
Went to work and everyone left early....WTF.
I was like.....'crap this....I am leaving...'
Was out of the office before you know it.
Went shopping and got myself a shirt.
It'll look great I hope...collecting it on Monday.
Nice blue shirt made from some soft material (so male not to know).

Went to Borders to get another 3 novels (3 for price of 2) to read.
Met Mervyn and Jeff for dinner and then met up with Joel, Alicia and 2 other SGians for coffee after.
One of the 2 'new' people I met was a mate from Army.
Talk about a small world siah.
Teddy.....also a mechanic. We prob met during our training in Only Eat Talk Idle.

Today was nice and relaxing.
Had a late brunch @ Hanaichi.
Went shopping....tried to find that cow skin pattern ottoman I found a while back but it was GONE!!!
Almost bought a PSP as well...but the controls were sticky.
Didn't buy anything but thinking about getting a Digital SLR instead.

The winds this weekend was really insane lo.
At times, I was really worried the deck chair might lift off into the neighbour's balcony or into the pool 15 stories down.

Ah....nice cool weather....the outside looks like Genting now....

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Weekly Update

Posted on 2006.03.04 at 20:05
Been a while since an entry was made.
Wat else can I say...I have been living a whirlwind life.
Just this afternoon, a wind blew my deck chair of my balcony.
Talk about the normality of that siah.
The amount of cleaning up after that....wow....and don't forget....I live on the 24th floor.

Let's see.
It all started last Sunday....
We all went to to Elyanna's place for a pool party.
Everyone was there.
And guess what....someone from the party knew a Brisbane Lion and brought him along!!!
It was great fun....all the guys were racing in the pool and the ladies....well....they enjoy the view....that's all I am gonna say.

Monday was pretty normal.
Nothing happened at all...a few guys got fired @ work...but it is common place already I think.
Spirits in the office has been bad.

Tuesday was alright.....started my driving lessons.
My instructor drove a Mini!!!!
Best la!!!
It was soo cool.
And he allowed me to drive free reign....took a few hard turns at 60kph...nice control man.
I am soo gonna get a Mini once I have the money.

Things slowed down on Wed night.
Stayed at home and packed my room.
I think it looks much better now....with everything in the living room....leaving only the bed and the table.
Much more.....space.
Prob will decorate the rest of the room with CDs and photo prints soon.

Thursday was the best.
We dropped by the Guild Bar for the Uni students' welcome party.
It was a smash hit.
We got shortlisted to be on stage to perform for the crowd and even though at first it was kind of a drag, we gave in and joined in the festivities.
Finally....all the practise on Sing Star paid off.
The food for the night was great as well.
Steaks and a bottle of wine....WOW!!!
We left a little early to avoid the storm coming up but not before having a few shots of CowBoys and someone was really having a Cow Boy on the bar top. O_O....lol. All good fun!!!
Came home and continued Sing Star until the neighbours complained that we didn't invite them over....so we sang our way thru the night until everyone decided to go to bed.

Friday morning was crappy....not enough sleep.
I mean...how much sleep can you get when there are 3 other people in the same bed?
Went to work and everyone left early....WTF.
I was like.....'crap this....I am leaving...'
Was out of the office before you know it.
Went shopping and got myself a new suit.
It'll look great I hope...collecting it on Monday.
Nice cream white jacket and pants to match.

Today was nice and relaxing.
Had a late brunch @ a Jap restaurant in the city.
Good la....need to pamper yourself once in a while.
Went shopping....and finally bought that cow skin patterned ottoman I always wanted from Bay Swiss....hehe....NICE.
Almost bought a PSP as well...but the controls were sticky.
Came home with an iPod instead....nice black one....hee

There you go....an update for the week.
But this pain in my head is driving me insane.
Kinda knocked my head on the door when I came home.
Haven't been able to see the colour Red for a few hours already....crap.
Anyways....gonna go and see if the crazy winds in the balcony can lift the table into my neighbours balcony.....

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Quizes Galore

Posted on 2006.02.24 at 08:52

Your Five Factor Personality Profile


You have high extroversion.
You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.
You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.
Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"


You have high conscientiousness.
Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.
Most things in your life are organized and planned well.
But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.


You have high agreeableness.
You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.
Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.
You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.


You have low neuroticism.
You are very emotionally stable and mentally together.
Only the greatest setbacks upset you, and you bounce back quickly.
Overall, you are typically calm and relaxed - making others feel secure.

Openness to experience:

Your openness to new experiences is high.
In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.
You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.
A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.
The Five Factor Personality Test

Your Seduction Style: Sweet Talker

Your seduction technique can be summed up with "charm"
You know that if you have the chance to talk to someone...
Well, you won't be talking for long! ;-)

You're great at telling potential lovers what they want to hear.
Partially, because you're a great reflective listener and good at complementing.
The other part of your formula? Focusing your conversation completely on the other person.

Your "sweet talking" ways have taken you far in romance - and in life.
You can finess your way through any difficult situation, with a smile on your face.
Speeding tickets, job interviews... bring it on! You truly live a *charmed life*
What Kind of Seducer Are You?

Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!
What's Your Ideal Relationship?


You Are 60% Weird

You're so weird, you think you're *totally* normal. Right?
But you wig out even the biggest of circus freaks!
How Weird Are You?


You Are 50% Boyish and 50% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch.
Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes.
You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them.
You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.
How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

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the one with the nostalgia

Posted on 2006.02.21 at 14:57
Bored outta my mind here @ work so went about looking through some profiles of friends in Friendster.
It is so cool to find out that some of them have really lived their lives to the fullest.
Making a whole network of friends....a career....a life.

It seems so long ago when we were just all hanging around in secondary school or JC and just playing a fool with our lives....with our time.
Carefree and living day to day.
What happened to those days?

Now...it seems so difficult to just meet up, catch up or even have a coffee.
I wonder what will it take to gather everyone again.
A wedding? A birthday? A funeral?
Can you imagine if your life was like "4 weddings and a funeral"?

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the one with the yearning

Posted on 2006.02.21 at 10:14
Amidst all the discouragement of relationships failing all around me...I still want to find someone to love.
I want to hold someone in my arms.
Someone who'll accept me for who I am.
Someone who'll love me as much as I love her.
I just want to hold her in my arms......

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the one with BBQ, curry and a headache

Posted on 2006.02.20 at 12:28
ARGH! Waking up with a blistering headache doesn't help when there is a whole week more to go before another wonderful weekend.
This week is gonna be even more exciting....with drama....emotion....and DVDs.
Anyways....The weekend was great.
Full of food....drinks....and fun (and I haven't had fun in a while)


Friday night, a warm evening breeze swept thru the city as we arrived at Nadia's for a BBQ.
Attendees: Mervyn, Charles, Jeff, Myself, Sehej, Lindsay, Nadia and Tara (who joined us after work).
T'was great fun with food, music, darts and Sing Star...LOL.
Brought the PS2 over (at Nadia's request) together with Sing Star and we sung ourselves silly while having too much fun.

The day time wasn't that bad either.
Took half a day off to get my learner's license (yes yes.....still a learner) renewed to hopefully start lessons within the next 2 weeks.
Met Anna and Elyanna in the city for lunch before heading off to Myer for a little shopping.
Mainly for the meat we were going to bring to Nadia's.
I was happy....my steaks got commendations...lol.

The gang went for drinks in the Valley after the BBQ but I decided to go home instead.
Wasn't in the mood for partying and I always felt that there is no point in going out if you're gonna be a wet blanket the whole night anyways.
Got home, turned on the aircon, sat in front of the TV and sang along to crap on Rave.
And then proceeded to my room where I sat in front of my laptop and continued to sing along to crap on the laptop.
But I got to write down the lyrics to 'Tong Hua' and I was proud of that (heh..the little pleasures we indulge in).


Always liked a good curry. Seems to make my day when I get a good stew of sorts.
Very homely....and naturally....reminds me of home.

My sis is down with fever. So I decided to cook a little chicken porridge for her.
Went down to the city and got her meds as well as a roast chicken for the porridge.
I am a little bugged by my sis sometimes though....a little 'thank you' would be nice sometimes.
But I hardly get that from her...

Sylvia called as asked if she could come over in the afternoon...and she did.
So there we go....4 people in the apartment (my sis came over)...watching TV.
Well...my sis was in my room sleeping, and we (lindsay and I) kept Sylvia company.

Then...curry time!!!

We went to join Chris and his mates from England @ Sehej's family restaurant for drinks and curry.
Wow!!!! Always loved the place....good food...and with good company...BAM! A superb combination.
Even had a chance to chat with Auntie after dinner....it was great.
The bottle of wine we shared and the chai tea (WOW!!!! GOOD STUFF!!!) also helped made my night.

Went home after that and had another round of Sing Star before Lindsay and Chris left for another round of partying.
I was lazy....stayed at home and watched Fraiser....lol.
But all was good....got some things done before heading to bed for another day....Sunday...here I come!!

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Posted on 2006.02.17 at 12:10

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the one with sushi and drinks

Posted on 2006.02.17 at 08:52
Was stoned yesterday at work.
For some reason, I have been unable to sleep...and it has been going on and off for the past week.
But I got thru it eventually and YAY! went to Hanaichi with a bunch of good friends for a 'sushi party'.
The standard was not as good as I remember it BUT it was still GOOOOOOOD!!!!!
Wow....I don't believe I had that much raw fish this year till last night.
It was great fun...and the company was just as great.

After dinner, we kinda ended up at the Downunder Bar.
I know, I know....I am supposed to be on a self-imposed ban on partying....but I dunno.
Just felt compelled to go last night (Sorry Chris).
Elyanna apparently had NEVER gone to a pub before and was interested to know how it is like inside.
I have no idea what was going thru her mind when she was in there with us but from the look on her face...she was either bored (which she claimed she wasn't) or deep in thought about something (which she claimed she was).
But she was thrilled nonetheless and wanted to go again next Friday night, when the REAL action begins at the DUB.

They left early but Nadia, Lindsay and I stayed a while longer.
Had a good jug of snakebite each before we left and I think Nadia was somewhat out of it by the end of the night (but hey....it happens EVERY time she goes out....isn't that right Nadia?...LOL)

We got home beered up and exhausted and the temperature wasn't helping.
so Lindz and I just sat in the living rooom with the aircon blasting reminiscing about secondary life and the damned exams we had to go through...lol.

Finally, I got a good night's sleep.
Probably from the exhaustion (damned...I need to get fit again).
But I can't possibly go partying till exhaustion for a hope of a good sleep, or can I?

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the one with the rain

Posted on 2006.02.15 at 08:50
Nice way to start the day I always say.
Rain for one...and two...getting all drenched cos some idiot driver just sped along-side a pedestrian walkway and splashed water on everyone on the road side.
Well...not really everyone considering everyone was just me and a nice couple having breakfast at a streetside snackery.
My umbrella broke and my back is all wet cos of that.

But I am keeping a positive outlook on this.
I survived yesterday....I can survive today.

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the one with the valentine's day

Posted on 2006.02.14 at 09:22
Ah!....Valentine's Day....
A nice refreshing way to remember a day that brings so much happiness to some and extreme depression to others....LOL.
The weather seemed to agree the with household mood this morning....dark clouds in the sky.
But I believe today will be good....and I am keeping my hopes up.

But for now....some updates:


A good start to a good day is what today was.
Started well...a good night's sleep...good weather...good plans....

------> One unexpected turn of events
Sylvia is in town.
I received a message this morning from her.
Something got over her and she felt compelled to fly down to Brissy thinking P is in town.
So, I met her and Darren for lunch in the city.
We tried to talk some sense into her but honestly...I don't think most of it sank in anyways.
Hopefully she won't do anything rash...

------> Back to the day
Rushed down to Myer to pick up the gift the gang and I decided to get for Asgeir and Jessie.
We are going down to their engagement party this evening.
How fun! (with the irony of recent events in the background)

Lawn Bowling...one of the last games I thought I'd ever get into.
The party was held at Oxley Bowls Club....so I might as well give it a go.
I was good....LOL.
Something about the slow pace of the game and my ability to control ball-like objects (don't let the mind wander) seem to pay off.
This probably won't be the last time I have a go at this game.
Asgeir and Jessie seemed very happy together and I hope all the best and God Bless their union.

We dropped by the Pig & Whistle @ Indooroopilly for drinks and snacks after.
Not long after, we were headed back to the city.
I was at that point in the mood to join them for more partying and drinks in the city but kinda felt bummed at some stage.
Stayed at home while the rest of the gang went down to the Vic and (DUH) the DUB.

All in all a good day, but despite all the fun, I somehow ended up crying myself to sleep...


Another good night's rest and another new day's challenges.
Nothing readily planned for today except the SG Club of QLD's CNY dinner later this evening.

Woke up to 2 extra sleepy bodies in the living room as I rushed out for Mass.
Finally bought "Sing Star" for the PS2. Have been toying with the idea for about a week and well....since there is an offer....might as well.
Met Lindsay, Nadia and Ben for lunch @ Wintergarden and had a good chat (more like a short gossip thing).
Went home and enjoyed croaking at the TV with Lindz in tune with Sing Star.

Rushed out around 4 for coffee with Mervyn, Jeff and Alicia before the dinner thingy.
For some weird reason, we ended up talking about SG politics....lol....WEIRD!
The dinner itself was alright....the food was good but the presentation was not anything to write home about. Probably won't bring anyone to that restaurant anytime soon.
But it was good to see some of the Aunties and Uncles here. Glad to know they are still good (and some still as loud) as ever.

We ended up at 3 Monkeys (where we met Luke, Rhonda and her friends). A good way to end the day. Chatting amongst friends and having a nice cool Lemonade in hand.

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The promise of love

Posted on 2006.02.10 at 09:00
Where has the promise of true love gone to?
Has society mauled our perception of care and love so much that it no longer serves the right intentions originally conceived?
Too deep for thought?
Before you think that...let me review a few things.

Was chatting with Serena last night over the phone and an interesting topic came up.
The 'flocking' of the female species to the male only when there is a good career and a car backing the latter.
Still confused?

We were talking about how men don't have to worry about getting girls. (Started abruptly with her telling me to get a 'mei mei' from China....ROFL)
But yes...according to her (and some reputable magazine back in SG), statistics have shown that when a man has a relatively successful and stable career, topped off with a car, women will naturally 'flock' to such breeds of men.
Amazing you say? But is it truly unfounded?

In the animal kingdom, the females are mostly ruled by instinct to seek out the strongest male of the pack and mate. Is this that different from what was discussed earlier?
A good career and car and outward representations of strength and power in the modern, materialistic world.
I am sure some other criteria might apply for other cultures but it does go back to a simple arguement. The strong will survive while the meek step aside.

But amongst all this racket about material success....have we lost the whole plot?
We are supposed to be beings of higher thought no?
I thought trust, care and love are the basis of finding a mate in life.
Perhaps in some way, our animal instinct is still present but no in the same way we might view it anymore.

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My Review Site

Posted on 2006.02.08 at 09:13
Finally started my own review site.
Always wanted to do something like this but never found the motivation to do it.
For future music, movie, television show reviews, go to

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